I don’t know what to tell you: Grief Week 21

What if something happens to my daughter and i don’t get to tell her I love her or how proud I am of her? What if our last conversation is our last conversation? I know it’s not something most people think about, but I think about it all the time now–and I know why I […]

Grief: this is my understanding about it week 20

When I first became a widow, I realized the word grief being used for anything else other than the death of a loved one puts that emotion on a scale so long that it starts to lose its significance. Being a widow is nothing like being divorced. I know because I’ve experienced both. Losing a […]

I Don’t Know What To Tell You: Grief Week 19

I’m not sure how many weeks I am actually going to do this. I was hoping if I did enough, I could organize them somehow into some sort of cohesive, organized, step by step process or program or… something, on what grief is like or how to climb out of it. I would be a […]

I don’t know what to tell you week 18

Is it my imagination or were things really that good? Is it by actual comparison that things look so bad? Or is it just a dream invading my reality. I don’t know but the last time a dream invaded my reality, it wasn’t easy, but it was beautiful.

Sam’s seeing eye girl

Sam didn’t like me following him when he ran to the store or things like that. He wanted his independence, but I sent someone along anyway and Sam ward okay with a kid going with him. She learned to tell when he waded getting frustrated and Sam called her his seeing eye girl. She is […]

Sam’s seeing eye girl

Sam didn’t like me following him when he ran to the store or things like that. He wanted his independence, but I sent someone along anyway and Sam ward okay with a kid going with him. She learned to tell when he was getting frustrated and Sam called her his seeing eye girl. She is […]

Sam’s seeing eye girl

Sam didn’t like me following him when he ran to the store or things like that. He wanted his independence, but I sent someone along anyway and Sam ward okay with a kid going with him. She learned to tell when he was getting frustrated and Sam called her his seeing eye girl. She is […]

I don’t know what to tell you: grief week 17

The other night I had a dream that I was in my own room, but it was bit and all in shades of white and eggshell. I understood it was a room of healing and it was in Imildris (also known as Rivendale in the Lord of the Rings). The room was beautiful and it […]

I don’t know what to tell you: grief week 16

Can you be addicted to a person? In Alcoholics Anonymous (AA) they have a twelve-step program in which members admit that they are powerless over alcohol and need help from a “higher power”. Can you be powerless over a person? Certainly as an adult with another adult that is possible, but do you need help […]

I Don’t Know What To Tell You: Grief Week 15

I remember in the 90’s there was a lot of talk about co-dependency, and I thought that meant depending on someone so much, you couldn’t function without them. It was a sort of addiction, in a way. At least it was to my understanding. But the entire purpose of a marriage is for you to […]