Sam’s seeing eye girl

Sam didn’t like me following him when he ran to the store or things like that. He wanted his independence, but I sent someone along anyway and Sam ward okay with a kid going with him. She learned to tell when he was getting frustrated and Sam called her his seeing eye girl. She is […]

I don’t know what to tell you: grief week 17

The other night I had a dream that I was in my own room, but it was bit and all in shades of white and eggshell. I understood it was a room of healing and it was in Imildris (also known as Rivendale in the Lord of the Rings). The room was beautiful and it […]

I don’t know what to tell you: grief week 16

Can you be addicted to a person? In Alcoholics Anonymous (AA) they have a twelve-step program in which members admit that they are powerless over alcohol and need help from a “higher power”. Can you be powerless over a person? Certainly as an adult with another adult that is possible, but do you need help […]

I Don’t Know What To Tell You: Grief Week 15

I remember in the 90’s there was a lot of talk about co-dependency, and I thought that meant depending on someone so much, you couldn’t function without them. It was a sort of addiction, in a way. At least it was to my understanding. But the entire purpose of a marriage is for you to […]

I Don’t Know What To Tell You: Grief week 14

Things come up when you least expect them. My new DH (dear hubby) said he found something in the suitcase and it was potentially emotional. He asked if I thought I could handle it now or later. Having no idea what it was, and he afraid to go into much detail, I thought I could […]

I don’t know what to tell you: week 13

Sometimes I will miss Sam and not know what I should do about it. Should I indulge myself and talk to him as if he’s listening or would that be considered disloyal to my new husband? Can I watch a video here was in? Should I rad his old journal entries or our text messages? […]

I don’t know what to tell you: grief week 12

There was a crazy storm here the week of the 9th. It was calm, then windy like a tornado, then crazy calm again. The lights went out, sirens were blaring everywhere, and I rad had at my husband because he’d been short with me. But with the crazy calm silence I couldn’t stop the […]

I Don’t Know What To Tell You: Week 10

This isn’t about grief. This is about what grief does to your future relationships. This week my (new) husband is on a business trip in Ohio. When he arrived there were tornado alerts and the Mall across from his hotel was still dark from losing power earlier in the morning. I asked him what city […]

I don’t know what to tell you: Grief Week 9

Sorry I’ve missed a week or two (and yes, I had two week 8’s for some reason). I’ve been really busy pulling my small business together: http://www.2ndlifedolls.com and trying to bring together a video for an indigogo project. We, new hubby and I, went to see Tolkien last night and it was a beautiful movie. […]

The Ridiculous World We Live In

I have been focused on my little business after the recent appearance at Comicpalooza at Houston, trying to put together more dolls, since some of my popular dolls sold and the outfits sold out. Trying to get some support, ideas and short-cuts, I went to look for a forum. And this is what came up […]